PAST TERRITORY.

AHHHHHS. stuff like CCA, SCHOOL, RELATIVES, PARENTS, HOME, TEACHERS, HIM ARE TOTALLY STRESSING ME OUT! come to think of it, shermine made some sense. band took up sooo much my time, i cant find myself anymore. "/ well, band takes up our time that we go crazy. shermine's cca gives her so much time it drives her crazy! well, this is HUMAN. up to date, my aunties think im come young punk being a leftout in school. only know how to make trouble, get average grades & stuff. AWW CMON! but i cant be botherd to change that image anymore. wadever. sec 1s are seriously so damn childish. its sickening. childish is okay. but to be rude? sheesh. what kind of environment are these kids growg up in? i darent even ask my senior about guys till i was like......a senior myself? wad the hell sia. URGHS. anyways, tomorrow doing goldilocks & the 3 bears. hehs. die liaos. homework is makg me breathless. give me a break?

him. well, he.........is ignoring me.

i shall end this here. i wanna catch some sleep & do some homework. nights.

RAWRS! i did something i SHUDN HAVE DONE! URGHHHHHHS! AHHHHHHHHHS! it looks so awful nowwwwww! ))))): tomorrow duno how to go to sku lerhs! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHS! D: i scared he laff at me lor. waliaoooooos. wencong says i shud go down & fix the problem. ): no money eh. dieeee. RARS. hais.
guess this is destiny. BYE HAIR.

tuesdayyyyyyyyyyyyy~ he pei-ed me to braddell. pei-ed me back to boonkeng & went back to little india. it was weird? din knw that he really would pei me lor. somemore OFFER to pei me back. XD somehow, those stupid moments arent really stuck in my head. moreover, i think about them as just a moment in time. but i knw i still cant seem to let it go. hais.

took this in one of the rest in taka. XD

ZOOM IN FOR THE FOLLOWING!
library~
chunhei, elton, leuven & i did this. HAHAHA. (it was ICETOFU den NICE TOFU)

xmas night last year.
this is TRICIA!

xmas night last year.
THIS IS ME! (sushi-ed rolld. LOLS.)


THATS NICHO FOR YOU!

bye peeps! :D

i found the last post really dumb. so i deleted it. RAHAHA. wcong still owes me a bubbletea. YAYYYYY. (:
anyway i updated his blog lerh. so if you guys wanna go take a looooook? :D

*edited
RA! im pissed yet cant scold. im sad yet cant cry. i have bottled up my feelings for so long, one day i might just burst into tears & drop onto the ground sobbing for hours. i accidently did in school. bt i managed to stop myself before any stupid questions come popping up to me. (: HAISSSSSS. yes, i admit i was jealous. i was deemed right down into the bone jealous. happy? urghs. just hope no one WRONG reads this before another question pointed to me will lead to a hysterical & stupid quarrel which will spark off just because of this post. nono. bt not wiv the same person. nono.

well, actually i dont knw. blogs are all online yea? the main idea of a blog is to post all your thoughts & your evryday life in here. bt if you post some negative posts about others, others will naturally come over here to find you. then at the same time, when you use some unworthy words, some others will come over & correct you for wadever they think is wrong. BUT, the ironic thing is this. when you write things in journals, no one cares cos they cant get to read it. if they DO get to read it, they might be hypocritical & keep secrest AWAY from you. sounds logical? SO, bottomline, wads the use of a blog if you cant make known things to yourself & yet at the same tme try to make evryone happy? common sense? if youre confused, its okay. cos im not here to make evryone i knw happy. i dont owe anyone a million dollars(HAHAHA? :P).

SO, today, regurgitated my milo this morning. felt like as if my throat was burning. guess its all the stupid hydrochloric acids in my stomach(HEHS). mr lee made me do the board. rar. its okay. i will try to do my very best. ^^ class rug. ive nvr done it before. rar. sometimes when you are the head for too long. you dont knw wad goes on underneath. "/ this is a good chance for me to rmbr wad it was like. (: anyway, yea, was kinda pissed. this is the 2nd consecutive day that i was pissed. lucky, i knw tmr wont be a assy day for me. cos tmr isnt a school day. (: asked him some questions. wasnt rly excited went he told all those crap. i guess, it was just too little too late(im just being stupid. seriously. XD)?

hahahas. todays a long post & it aint done. haha! went to eat chicken rice wiv shermine & her sis, sherhong. & her sis' friends. dawn & peixin? yea. shud be her name. yea. peixin said to be scared of me.. like.....what the? HAHAHAS. m i rly that intimidating? ): amkes me a lil sad okayyyy. so yea, after that went for band. supposed to play the whole repertoire, budden me samad kept stopping in between animation. RAR. gonna watch the stupid totoro thing later. see whats it all abt. haiiiiiiis! hope our concert is a total success. till then, i hope no slacking comes from me.

i loved you so much, i wantd to cry.

\what i forgot to update yesterday.
i forgot to update abt 11th of january. hehs. that day wcong & i had modular after sku. bt it was raing like crazy. bt he ran off first. i was left at the foyer wiv tricia & shermine. (: we saw anson & leuven there also. heh heh. it was 230pm. raaa. so i walkd in the stupid rain wiv so many people looking at me thinking dat i was most probably insane. so i walkd home totally soaked. bt my feet were miraculously dry. the part which my bag coverd was also dry. xP anyway, yea, bathed den went to fulushou. met wcong & kept laffing. mr koh ask if we knw each other, we say duno. HAHAHAAAAAA. =.- sian. budden, the main point is my maths is btr den his lah. after modular, he sent me to the busstop. it was raing like SIAO. SIAO till maybe when people nvr see rain before, they think tsunami want to come already. hahas. wcong still send me ehhhhh! hahahas. so nice. so i went on the bus, shivering like a stupid moron.

went off the bus & walkd further down. guess who i saw?

airu & stephanie!

den i walkd down somemore, guess who is saw?

depak & friends!

den i walkd down maybe abt 2 steps down. guess who i saw?

shermine & her friend!

den i walkd down somemore. guess who i saw?

shihan!

den i walkd down somemore guess who i saw?

jaspreet & friends!

then i walkd further down, guess who i saw? well, you cudn have guessed, cos i dont even knw her. lol. i saw her frm the bus i took direct frm the busstop at bugis. she let me share her brolly! so nice hor.. den she say she saw me wet frm the bus till the stop. hahaas. so share a while since she was so persistent. den we walkd till the bbc. she askd me if i lived in block 3. o.o (like hw would she knw right..) yeah. so my story ends here. (:

yesterday i ate some of my sister's baby food. the mashed applesauce. eeee. its like sweet at first, den leave it in your mouth for too long, it turns bitter. overall, it does taste like real apple. ^^(maybe dats why i dont rly like it. LOL.)

cant rly be online these few days. my comp is laggg as my uncle uses it to d/l stuff. ))): nvm. hee.

i rly appreciate evrything evryone has done for me. i knw sometimes i dont show it, bt rly, its all the little things that you guys do that sometimes make me rly mad & make me rly happy. :DD

thanks wcong for sending me & peiing me to go on thursday & talking on the phone!
thanks shermine for lending me her umbrella + being there for me for evrything!
thanks for annonymous that shared wiv me her umbrella!
thanks brenda for always being there for me!
thanks mr lee for asking abt me too!
thanks for shaoqing trying to wish me goodmorning & goodnight!
thanks tricia for sharing her secrets! (:

i just wanna thank evryone that anyone has done anything for me! :DDD

i might stop blogging this year. so this might be the last post, SO eat on it! hahahas. but! i will be back if i want to. heees. wait for me yea? hahaas. anyway,

i love him. i love him not. i love him. i love him not. i love his brother? HAHAHA. no way. bt his bro SHUAI DAOOOO~! XD sometimes, i cant help it bt just feel like calling him to tell him how i feel exactly. bt, EEEW?? hahahahahas! his bday. urghs. it sucked BIG TIME. im gonna make SOMEONE'S birthday REALLY GREAT this year. (: my buddy for the year 2006 ehhhhh! HAHAHA. i love her i love her. once i hated her, bt, friends will all go through hard obstacles. thats how friendships are bonded. STRONGER :DD i guess she herself will knw who? HAHAHA. im NOT telling. (:

im who who makes oneself's life suck. im not gonna do it anymore. (: THANKS WS!

i love hate love hate love hate love hate love hate him. URGHS. I DONT KNW!! nvm. today had CCA orientation. "/ SO SCARY LA! shout here shout there.. all the sec ones so hard to psycho. = but kids, seriously, you may think npcc is fun. bt the teachers in charge all jia xing xing one. hais. but all the sec ones this year like very little eh. hais. met his bro & cousin. lols. wcong showed. xP nthg to regret now. npcc so nice. one for all, all for one. if you compare band peeps & npcc peeps in our class, npcc more united. ):

talked wiv weeguan last night. what he said was all correct. (: i cant stick to a friend for a long time. i will get sick of them. hais. cmon!! let me change. oh yea, b4 i forget ms aw asked me to go to dm office outside after assembly. i think... i put here cos in case i forgot. ): tuesday after sku gg to watch deathnote 2 also. grr. only sec 2 lor. the rest all sec 3. ): nvm. who cares. OH YA..

im bored. =.- life sucks as a secondary two student. urghs. im so sick of it already. you get exposed to all the stupid & childish things that they do in the school. im getting very sad. when its your first few months in secondary school. all things seem innocent. when evrything done in the school is all for hypocracy. damn. why m i saying all these.

i thought all things would be darn FINE. i thought my stupid secondary one year was over. but i overlookd something. more sec ones will come in. & my favourite secondary 4 friends would be replaced by suckups. i forgot. i forgot. i lost it when i gained it all. why?

yea. my cousin is right. if fairness governed life, no one would die young. life is nvr fair. never. ahs. you immature morons wouldnt understand. maybe others would. bt most of the people i knw in my life will nvr undertsand.

RAHAHAHAA. you stupid spastic assholes dont think i cant DONT use verbal abuses as part of my evryday speech den go & die lahhhh! ))))))): i will just bang the wall & cry. LOLS? hahahas. im just rly tired & depressed lah. tired cos ive been like doing work round the house for quite a long time to day & depressed cos...well, depressed cos of TWO MAJOR reasons. the rest are not counted. =x xP

1. SCHOOL'S STARTING!!
2. im gonna be in secondary 2 next year & we are nt the youngest in benss anymore. ):

sad case urh. HAHAHAA. 2k7 is gonna be a green year for me. hehs. i dont care ar, next year derh secondary 1 btr dont gimme face hor. slap them den dey knw. WUAHAHAHAHAA~ seriously, im just entertaining myself here. -.=

so sian! ): gonna work hard this year! gonna turn into a better person! goodluck vanessa! xP

dead & gone on the 2nd of january. LOL.

HAPPY NEW YEAR! \ CARMEN new year & VANESSA new year. xP

this new year sucks. bt to me, no newyear has evr rocked YET. ): wait till we can go to siloso beach. to parteh! hahaha~ no lah. newyear only newyear what. no diff. -.= siansasi!

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS;

1. do my homework!
2. NO VULGARITIES!
3. try not to hate next year sec 1s & make good friends wiv them.
4. do NOT covet. NEVER!!
5. remember to stick to the newyear resolutions. (:

oh how i love myself. hahahas!

thought you should you know i tried my best to let go.

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part two.
part three.
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